Last month I saw the program "Nerd Nation" where a guy who was bullied as a kid realized as an adult that he'd rather have taken the beatings and be who he is today than not get the beatings and been one of the bullies (or a bystander who did nothing.)
Helped me a lot. I mean, I'm a standup comic with a paid-off Master's Degree living in the Nation's Capital, and they're still rednecks living in Arkansas and Texas.
Karma is real.