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Mon, Aug. 28th, 2006, 01:53 pm
Home Sweet Acting Workshop.

When I'm with people, I try to imagine who they think I am, and pretend to be that person. I write family visits off my taxes as an acting workshop. Dad's a table-pounder. I gotta work hard to match that energy. Sure, I could be myself and develop sincere relationships, but why give my family more reasons to reject me? I use my actor's notebook.

I practice accepting offers and agreeing with the other characters onstage. Yes, mom, whatever you say. I'm not really accepting them, I'm just moving the scene forward. I'm a professional. I used to avoid conflict, but I've learned that powerful moments erupt from conflict. But the "method acting" defense doesn't hold up in court. "Why did you throw a beer bottle at your brother?" "I was following the natural flow of the scene."

Now I'm in mandatory anger therapy. Great. Another workshop. I've already planned my emotional breakdown. My crying jag, my speech about learning to feel. Very Matt Damon in "Good Will Hunting." I'm goin' for the Oscar. I'm kidding. I love my family. How was that? Did that come off as sincere? Good. I've been practicing.

Mon, Aug. 28th, 2006 08:34 pm (UTC)

What do you do if you run into someone like yourself?

Or, from the RPG "Over the Edge," consider tulpas:

Tulpas are free-floating concentrations of psychic energy that for some reason coalesce and take on human form. The twisted atmosphere of Al Amarja somehow encourages this. Little is known about this process because the tulpas are, like most I secret races, extremely, uh, well, secretive

Tulpas, in a sense, become physical embodiments of the mental projections of those they encounter. A tulpa in its early formative stages is just a vague light or shadow materializing in a corner or alcove. It must wait until a human (or other sentient being) encounters it. The tulpa will then physically change to match whatever the sentient imagines it to be. The longer one individual looks at and thinks about who they're seeing, the more detailed the persona the tulpa will adopt. The tulpa will then travel about, gaining details -- physical appearance, imaginary life history, habits, speech patterns, etc. -- as they bump into more and more people who form irnpressions of them.

For example, a tulpa begins to materialize behind the piano in Den of Thieves in the Sunken Plaza. The first person to see its shadowy form is a worried burger [SMM: burger = "tourist"] who feels women are always preying on him. The tulpa becomes the predatory gorgeous woman he is thinking about, and approaches him. Frightened by the reputation of the bar the burger further assumes she'll be violent and heavily-armed, so she becomes such, A bouncer approaches her, and assumes she'd have to be insane or dangerous or both to cause trouble here, so she becomes both. This particular tulpa is not going to be a good citizen, but depending on who the burger had expected to run into, the result could also have been a shrimpy aging accountant, a naive fellow tourist, or Wayne Newton.

from http://findarticles.com/p/articles/mi_m1510/is_n82/ai_15297578

If you put two tulpas together, they set up a feedback loop that ain't pretty.

Tue, Aug. 29th, 2006 02:32 am (UTC)
basilwhite: Someone like me?

What do you do if you run into someone like yourself?

It's never happened. Friends, family, acquaintances, never met anyone who reminded me of me. Except my son Bill. And I just stare at him in awe.

A friend told me she met someone like me once.

Mon, Aug. 28th, 2006 09:20 pm (UTC)
haya: You know..

You are on the list for a real one and can come join us whenever you want.
I'll have a new date soon.

Manditory Anger therapy?

Tue, Aug. 29th, 2006 02:42 am (UTC)
basilwhite: Re: You know..

New date soon. Good.