I flipped through a book that illustrated the goals people have at every year of their life. At my year of life, my goal is supposed to be "Climbing the Corporate Ladder." My sense of how other people climb the ladder is skewed, because my sense of how people do anything is skewed. I just study people so I can imitate them to get what they have.
My imitations aren't working. Recently I completed a year-long leadership training series and a project management certification course, two large punch-holes in the corporate ticket. Or so I thought. I think I've reached the promotion potential of weird people. I think I've hit the rubber ceiling that prevents me from advancing to a role where I might have to speak on behalf of the organization.
If I want to advance, I have a responsibility to demonstrate that I will represent the organization favorably in case they put me behind a microphone. I respect that responsibility, because if I was sending me to speak on my behalf, I'd want to be able to predict what I would say. Trouble is, I rarely know what I'm going to say at any moment.
Maybe I need some guided visualization, imagine what I would do in a situation where I made the bosses happy and comfortable. If no one's going to pull my strings, I might as well be my own puppetmaster.
As always, tell me what you think.