I'm conflicted between the need for the mental rehabilitation of puttering alone, and the need to avoid feeling lonely. Only this year have I felt the need to restore my mental health by spending time alone.
Before this year I can't recall any strong conscious need to spend any time alone. I guess that this year is the first time that my capacity to spend time alone has been threatened.
Of course, maybe I'm just not that lonely anymore and I'm open to other emotional needs. It's a new, curious feeling for me to want to spend time alone.